Paint on that Smile- Created by Chloe Bushell

I will never be able to explain the way I felt in that moment and in fact every single moment after.

Something that started off so “innocent” to this… (CHLOE PRE RECORD)

(Pre Record) A look here, a whistle there. Then one grab here and one grope there…

But it is nothing right? It happens to everyone doesn’t it? ( Zoom) (ELLA)

I guess it just felt super weird. No, you’re right. It is nothing. I am sorry for making such a big deal about something so minor. (CHARLEY PRE RECORD)

I know, I know! There are bigger things going on in today’s society. Wow I am so over sensitive. (Ella PRE RECORDED) I guess there right I really am a drama queen. (CHARLEY AND CHLOE Together on Facetime PRE RECORDED)

(filmed on a zoom call)

But that is not how I really feel… I feel so trapped. (Charley)

I feel as if everyone sees me as property, as if I have touch me written on my forehead. (Chloe)

I used to feel so confident when I went out and now, I just feel lost. (Almira)

Completely stripped off my personality. Like I am nothing. (Brooke)) Write nothing on body)

No one. (Rory-Write no one body)

Just another statistic. (Write a number or small statistic somewhere) Chloe

I have not been able to sleep since that night. I physically can’t let my boyfriend touch me (hold cheek slowly move hand down) even a simple kiss goodnight is a struggle. (Move slowly to the left) everyone

And I hate myself for it. I hate that I cannot lay in bed and cuddle the one I love like most people do. (CHARLEY)

That fact that the sun is beaming, and I feel this burning sensation to wear jeans and a hoodie wherever I go. (CHLOE)

Everyone! To the point where I am suffocating and I can’t even breathe. ( zoom cover mouth breathe heavy 3 times, hands burst apart)

(Pre recorded, everyone paint on a smile with some form of lipstick)-But every morning I wake up, paint on that smile and I continue to pretend that that night was simply nothing but a mistake.